Intentions are goals that you set during the New Moon phase, which typically falls at the beginning of each month. Over the next two weeks, you bear those intentions in mind and start working on them, letting them really come to fruition by the time the Moon is Full.
Friday’s New Moon was a little special – it was a Black Moon, which occurs when there are two New Moons in one calendar month. As a bit of an amateur, I can’t (yet) claim to fully understand the significance of that in terms of energy, but what I have felt the effect of is this New Moon’s presence in the Zodiac sign Libra. The New Moon in Libra prompts us to focus on the partnerships in our lives, as well as on our own sense of beauty, and those themes have certainly been resonating.
But what about last month’s intentions? How did I get on with those? I wanted to work harder to celebrate small victories against anxiety, and I’m happy to say I’ve been killing it on that front. At the beginning of the month, we went to visit friends in Sweden, and it was the most anxiety-free journey I’ve been in for a while. I managed to stay in good spirits when anxiety did rear its ugly head the day before the flight, and was even able to manage some logistical details of the trip such as carrying our passports, booking the flights and transfers. It may sound trivial but small things like that used to feel impossible and I definitely gave myself a virtual pat on the back for facing the fear. I hope you enjoy the snaps from beautiful Sweden that I’ve included in this post!
I also wanted to focus on living at a slower pace – sadly, I can’t say I’m there yet. I still don’t give myself enough time in the mornings, and the weeknights and weekends seem to be filling up with plans that I’m only slightly sure I want to commit to. I’m carrying this intentions forward indefinitely and hope to soon be leading a more relaxed life.
This month, thanks to Libra, I’ve set down the intention to be a better part of the lives of those I care about – a better partner, sister, friend, daughter and colleague. Writing that down, I know I approach this with some negative feelings and it does feel like I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself sometimes to be “better.” But if I can just make small adjustments – share the chores out more evenly at home, message my friends when I think of them, have more patience with parents and colleagues, etc. – I can build stronger and more balanced relationships with the people around me.
A big theme for me this New Moon was to do what makes me happy. For a while now I’ve found myself feeling scared that my reclusive tendencies are making it harder for other people to connect with me, and it has made me sad to think that I might lose friends because of it. Although this is mostly just me over-analysing, I have realised that I do need to take a step back from trying to please other people – it’s exhausting, and not what they would want. My meditation mantra spoke to this need to make myself happy, and I’m already feeling more positive about it.
My other intentions for October were to continue investing in my dreams in practical ways; saving towards a deposit for a house, for example, and putting time into planning and writing my novel. I also want to get more organised creatively, starting with #Blogtober this month and NaNoWriMo next. If you’re taking part in either of those initiatives, let me know so we can cheer each other on!
That’s pretty much it for this month. I wish you all a productive, balanced October!